judging from your looks, you seemd to be innocent.
but judging from your heart, you're one fucking bitch.

can anyone tell me , do i look like i'm from a happy family ?
do i ?!
I FEEL LIKE A PRISONER JUST THAT I COULD WALK AROUND.
tell me, what's teenage life when you can't do what you like, esp during the hols? i can't work, fines, i'm underage. but please? look around, in which shop got no underage student? you guys are just being so unreasonable!
nvm, i respect you guys. wanted to dye my hair, hey, thing is, you guys don't have to pay or anything. ' no, cannot. ' and lots or lyrics came out from your mouth. i've heard it so many times maybe i could even memorise those ' lyrics ' huhs?
unreasonable and ridiculous parents you two are. read my personal diary. how rude and you guys just have no respect for me. i'm shock and displeased that you guys invaded in my privacy. try comparing me with other ppl, have i not listened to you guys before? was my results really that bad ? i passed you know. i've improved from mid-year. but you guys just said i've dropped. from primary schools. i'm in sec sch now, not pri. that'll be a difference. what's wrong with you guys i don't understand. i've studied you know. and just cause i wanna go wrok and dye my hair, dad says if i didn't wanna study tell him, don't waste his fucking money. i talk back and i got more scoldings. rahrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !

gng school ltr on to pass up the form. meeting dominic daddie ltr on. :D

i'm back from camp since saturday.
so camp didn't turn out to be as bad as i thought?
see, i've good instructors. cool, joker, friendly [ at times ], and cute too.
polar, mama mirah, mummy && daddy.

first day was sea activities.
on bus to changi and sat with kenneth. zhen yang and group were noisily chatting, crapping and di-siaoing. first activity was improvised rafting, and i swear none of us is cut out for it. lunch next. how cute we are to sit on the grass to eat! wow! lols. kayaking next. paired up with hwee wen at first. then was arranged to be with desmond [ ohmygod! ], then hwee wen change with desmond so i'm back with hwee wen again! :D was fun. but holding on to each others' kayak was tough. T-U-P-H. huimin's hand had blistered. poor thing. mine was all red. D: then was dragon boating. was okays. but it was tilting here and there each time when there's a slight movement. scary luhs. after that, had a quick bathe, which, uh- i didn't really think it was a bath? okays, bus to bukit batok. and that's the plae we're sleeping at? sigh. had dinner. few hours ltr, went to tent, and that's where we're sleeping. try imagining : just a 'cloth' and the tent thing to cover us incase it rains? ants, spiders, insects, snakes. all of my 'loves' huhs? and i'm pleased and proud to announce i was brave enough to sleep at the side! wells, main reason was no one else dared to and they squeezed to the middle and there i was at the side? hahas. call me noble then. i wonder, are we so power. like, there's me, carina, tingys, mel.y, rachel tan, chris, then boohui, meiyi and chen ning came. like, woah! hahas. small party. :D w/o food? lmao. & slept at 3 ++

second day was land activity.
congratulate me. i was sun burnt the day before and i thought it wouldn't hurt to NOT put any sun block lotion this time? so i heck care and off i went to assemble with the others. breakfast was nasi lemak. pretty much of a no comment luhs. started off with CRC, which is whatever rope whatever. wasn't attentive in lessons. were distracted by the flies flying around and spiders and all. D: so i did one high element, and wee! was so proud to announce that i completed it within 1 and a half min or so? hahas. rachel and tingys couldn't believe it. but wells, fact is that i did it! and that was the only thing i did for the rest of the day. :D campfire at night. some performances put up by diff. houses and diff. groups. i loved our dance! :D polar instructor and mama mirah! hmms, tired after a tiring day. hot day! slept at 12 ++.

third day,
thought we could sleep later. but 6 plus only, the instructors kao-pehing. shouting, asking us to wake up. ridiculous! packed up our bags and off to assemble. set off at 11 ++ back to sch. was so tired the bus was so quiet, even zhen yang they all also sleep. which is like, woah? but kenneth didn't sleep. cause he couldn't? or what? lols. back to sch at 12 ++, settled down and teacher gave us back report books. but i couldn't have mine back. cause i haven't paid mr chin $10 for history field trip which occured on first few months of the year?! and i didn't even attended it! nvmnvm, charity then. went to mr chin, quarrelled with him, then snatched my book and went off. so my book's with me now. hees. walked to bus stop with jojo and jessie. jes went home, jo and i waited for my mummy to come and fetch us home. chiong-d to bathe and set out to jojo's house as we're gng to newton to watch a ... show? apologies, couldn't think of that specific word! started at 3, we reached at 3+, we took A cab. we as in me, jojo, jessie and terrence. and yeahs. went to plaza sing to have our dinner. and long john's was it. terrence didn't eat and he went off. crapped and walked around plaza sing. stop by watson's.or wait. was it guardian? oh damn it, i couldn't rememeber! nvm, mrt-d a whole round, zilians with jes and jo. :D hees. walked around hg mall after jo bought her black colour 4.90 shoes and hahas. waited for her daddy. and we went to people's park. bought a shirt. jo didn't buy, her mummmy said she's too skinny? lols?! so yeahs. will upload pics if jo sent in the pics already.

and today. mummy was suddenly random by saying, you wanna pierce your ear anot?!
lmao!







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you made yourself out to be so important then you really are - pompous.

life's per nomal without school. except it's really boring yeahs.
camp's in 1 day time. which uh-uh, i'm not really looking forward to.
camp - sucks.

a word to describe this whole year - fast .
time just seems to pass slowly when you're enjoying time in sch with friends. ]: i'm gna miss 2e3.07, even though i'm pretty much of a 'quiet-er' girl compared to last year huhs? wells, unbelieveable.

so results for sa2 is out, and good thing is, i only failed my science afterall. bad thing, failed drastically. gettting 39.1 marks for science seriously shows i didn't touch the book at all. but in fact, i touched and notes were writen. pretty weird for the fact that ' I STUDIED ' .

chinese went up to 74.1 , just that 0.9 marks for a1, hopefully, they'll pull me up? maths to b3, which , ah! i want an a!

you can't choose not to hear those pejorative comments from me

sigh. bad bad day. school as usual. raining. rahr.
went to class late with jmine, jessie, josephine, zZz. lucky i managed to smuggle my green tea in class :D yeahs. first period lit, mdm woo kept talking but it seems like no one's bothered to listen. got back lit paper, :D was fourth in class. overall 62% - b4. wells, considered not bad already for someone who doesn't listen in class, doesn't do work and yeahs. kp to the teacher. hees.
miss chen & mdm yeo came in after ahwoo, so stacks of papers in their hands, woah. gna tell you my results and yeahs, realised how disappointing it is. D:
maths : 62 / 100 . sobs. haven't got the overall marks. hope at least can a2 bahs? but wells, paper 1 was the highest in class. 35/40 :D hees, not bad luhs.
english - rahr! failed paper 2! by just 2 marks! nabehcheebye! i've 23 / 25. wtf rights?! now gotta depend on my paper 1 lerhs, which is compo.
design and tech - ahha. these, i'm super shock luhs. i've scored 32 / 100. which is higher then what i thought. cause i thought i lost 80 marks already? overall i got 47 / 100, which is shocking luhs. :D
pepp - aiyah, this one, nvm luhs. 21 / 50. fail also sua liaos. i also not interested. ;D
science - cb! this one i fucking shock luhs! the paper 2 hours, i finish it in 1 hr 45 mins. already very long ler sia. my ans all long long one. kana, in the end i failed. what i writing sia. fuck.
chinese - also very disappointing luhs. my compo was kinda out of point but managed to pass D: 114 / 160, and so it's 71.25%, which is an a2, hopefully overall results won't so jialat?
geog - wowowowowowow. hahahas. lols. 50 / 100, so last minute study also not bad luhs. has.
so yeahs, was recess after that, god, the noodle was disgusting, so watery, so little noodle, so little meat and fish cake, like, wtf. totally dropped standard. wells, cause change of people? yeahs. after recess ........... ohshit. i forgot what happened?! lols.paisehs.
after sch went compass, had kfc, jaron came along. talked and they left for far east and i headed home. teeees, i'm a good girl!

ytd wen to ahma's house, then to cousin's house. godness, her room's full of . . . wait, is it chem or physics ? wells, i think it's chem. there's alot of chem formulas and all. wahlau, *faints. think i can't slack anymore in sec 3. ah! help, i don't understand the choosing of subjects! lols. okay, back to the point. so yeahs. hope i won't be crazy when i 'graduated' from sec sch. hahahahas.

so tmk, how's your results? hopefully it's good? hahahas. but wells, kinda impossible cause you also like never study one uhs?. wells, good lucks! btw, i've given up. reallly given up. it's just friends and hatred towards you now. heehes :D

lynn and lynette and all 2e3's, don't cry ler nahs. work harder for sec 3 lorhs. we've been very slack in sec 2 lerhs. jiayous worhs! :DD

sweetie, thanks uhs! :D loveyou nahs!

sorry miss tan for disappointing you for maths. didn't expect myself to fail for paper 2. i thought i could get at least a 30 or so. ended up getting 27 instead. wells, no use crying over spilt milk luhs. will work harder next year.

sorry daddy&mummy, didn't manage to get the results you guys expected to :'( but please don't say i've not been concentrating luhs, cause i have been and i'm single, so i'll argue back if you guys ever say i've a boyfriend! :D

siaoehs, mel.y, jackie, kunleng, hwee wen. very low chance that we'll be in the same class next year? but wells, will be happy enough if anyone of you all same class with me luhs. :D xiaoji! don't slack lerhs! don't chiong maple lerhs! hahahas.

so tell me how to choose the subjects? lols. i seriously don't understand.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOMINIC DADDIE. :D

wells, days without school is utterly boring.
life sucks luhs.
can't go shopping.
got to wait for exam results.
got to make sure i don't get any fatter. .__.
sians.
2 more days to monday.
are we getting our results then?
rahr! can't stand dats at home.
i rather spend it at school slacking or so.

so 2 bros are making me fustrated each day.
played monopoly ytd and they team up to cheat.
like, fines. they don't have to pay each other, i have to.
wtf. damn dulan play with them sia.

so i guess we're going on better terms with emily now.
:D which is yeahs, something good luhs.

AND I'M BEGINNING TO HATE YOU MORE EACH DAY, FXCKING BITCH!

pssst : mummy&daddy just went off to orchard and they never bring us along. rahr. hahahas, sweet time together luhs! :D

i miss jmine, jessie, mel.y, josephine and all. :D

alamak.
it's raining now.
the thing is, nahs, hahas. i'm currently addicted to this show, hongkong show.
which i don't really know what's the title, but aha, it's nice. (:
so i really don't know what to say.
i don't know if i still have any more problems.
i could contact tz already, but he says he's stressed, he's going to court. i don't know.
sigh.
am i more stressed?
argh.

mummy for no reason started to scold me about losing 18 marks for maths paper two.
fuck. i'm disappointed enough in myself i see no reason why she had to add in more kp-ness.

i'm fucking desperate for money now! i need to buy my phone. :'((((((( ! ! ! ! !

& sean's making kenneth pissed off and angry.
ccb! family fxcking problem agains!!!!!!!!!!

exam finally over. :DDDD
art exam today. hmms, was pretty rush. or i would say, argh, not enough time? how about making it 2 hrs 10 mins next time, i swear i can finish it in time! D: firstly, i keh pa lan go perfect the 10by10 cm squares line. zZz, a lesson learnt. next time don't try to be so perfect. :x took me about 15 mins to finish drawing the boxes. thought i could finish it earlier some more. wtf.
drew my 'mexican' person. or i say, a lady? hahahas. cute one though. heehee. finish drawing, erased off the extra lines. did my colouring. god i was a slow colour-er. -.-' crayon was hard to use! fuck! regrets. ): awww, was colouring my hats when it's like 9.00am, left one hr to go, and i still got my bodies and my trims to do. ): so chiong-d. ahhH! my art piece gone! crayon colours mixed together. fuck! so forget it, at least earn some marks. :D so colour colour. then left 5 mins. used marker to trace the pencil markings. then shucks. marker can't be used for crayon! knnb. so gave up. tried to perfect my colouring. until i realised i could used pencil to trace, just that the linings weren't as thick as markers. so yeahs, rushed. and time's up. my art piece was announced as ruin, by me. :D hopelesssss
after that, went compass with charmine and jmine. had fish steamboat. yummy. (: saw someone who i don't think i should be mentioning him at my blog since i don't even know him. yeahs.

holidays, here i comeeeeeeee!

i don't see a reason why you think i am asking for pity. or acting. maybe to you, i am, or are you thinking too much? even i do need pity, it ain't from you. guys who broke girl's heart will never understand how girls' feel. got it tmk? tried to clarify all these with you but you didn't reply me. guess the only thing i could do is to 'stay in contact with you' through my post. hope you'll read this. and don't feel offended in any ways. but seriously, what made me fucking pissed was the way you 'backstabbed' me to J.G. hurts understand.
and btw, take care. :D

aha, thanks jasmine for the previous post. (:
ytd was .. weird?
let's see, went to tampines mall in the afternoon as mum wanna change dad's phone.
starhub, have to wait 2 and a 1/2 hours. dad went like. huh?!, no need luhs! ,
so yeahs, they're gng agns on weekdays.
ntuc, bought my fav strawberry milk. wahaa. :>
back home t put those stuffs and went kallang / geylang?
wearing these green tanktop ytd, daddy went nagging,
'why all your shirts all like that ones?!'
lmao? shucks.
had hor fun for dinner. okay, the thing is, daddy brought us there to have pepper crab.
yeahs. feel like one gangster there.
zZz, people smoking, drinking. .__.


today
went compass at 12++ to meet mel.y, jmine, jessie to study. (:
aiyahs, we're good girls. :D
heehee.
was fxcking pissed after josephine told me somethings.

to tmk.
i've never known that you're this kinda person.
you speak something and meant the other.
you told me to text you when i've top-d up.
& when i've text-d you, you told me not to anymore.
cause you didn't wanna receive my msg.
you think you're some kinda holygod here?
you've simple no fucking respect for me.
treatingme like some kinda rubbish just because you've given her up on her and you don't need me to provide me anymore information about her.
you're just one fucking bastard which i swear i'm fucking hating you now.
think about it then msg me?! for fuck?!!
you're taking me for granted, to think i even did stupid things for you.
to think i sacrificed so much for you.
to think i shed-d those fucking worthless tears.
you're one fucking guy which totally disgraces whole world's GUYS!
fuck you tmk!

phew, there's more to what i'm gna say just that i've not enough time. D:
scold me for being a stupid girl.

I wna go to th beach with you

fuck!
maths and dnt paper today.
fucking difficult.
paper1's fine, cause set by mr liew.
paper 2's like, wtf. set-d by mrs coleen yeo!
ccb, damn difficult luhs. we're not up to that damn standard yet!
if any paper's gna pull my maths result down, it'll be the e-o-y paper!
sobs,
design and tech, 75-80 marks flew away. wheeee. lmao
sorry, pretending to be happy though i'm not.
i didn't even touch the notes, while i brought it to school. waha.
you can call me stupid. ):
hahas.
at jmine's house. i super love her key board! damn nice!

so about the sec 1's thingy.
all alright lerhs. just that, still can't stand that fucking yunhui.
admire her courage, that's one good thing.
but fucking hate the way she talks. damn xialan, tell me about it.
heck care if she's gna see this anot, not my damn prob.
so bye bitch.

goodbye t.m.k, finally, something you said made me hate you. :D
congrats!
maybe i've given up already?
sobs, hard to let go. ):
but bo bian. bye.
tell me if i'm lying anot?

fucking stressed.
daddy's sick.
i think sean's addicted to computer games. [ maple etcetc ]
and it's always because of him daddy flares up.
and sean's having his o's next week.
yet, he's still not studying. maybe he touched the book,
but if he's always thinking about games, what's the book for?
wells, yeahs, for display.
stupid enough luhs.
rahr!

but i'm glad to say i've been a ultra good girl this week. and next.
hahahahas
(:

so i presume life's better now.
cause, ytd, 5 good things happen! which totally is, woah! hahas!
1. i'm top 10 in class for literature. which indeed is very shocking as i've never listened in lit classes, and i hardly do work. ): so getting top 10 was really a miracle!
2. i got 75.8% for my maths. which, yeah, I've improved alot! from my previous ca though. :D I'm looking forward to my end-of-year maths test. hopefully it won't be so difficult.
3. censored. just to say I'm safe for sec 2's camp! :D
4. HE HAVE GIVEN UP ON THAT GIRL! which is, among all the good things that happen, the best! even though i still don't really like the way how she behaves, i won't say anything now. cause HE giving up on her is really very much of a relief to me!
5. taizi's out of 'danger', don't ask me what i mean, so i should be getting my phone back anytime. but the fxcking problem is that, he's not answering my/my bro's call. hopefully he's not backing out luhs.
so that's the five good things that happened!

sec 1's, or i should emphasise, some, really have no basic respect for the their seniors, be it sec 2, 3 or 4 and 5. they just say what they feel like it, never thinking it twice.
sometimes, it just gets on our nerves to see juniors saying stuffs like that or being sarcarstic in a way or another. sec 1's, next year you guys will be going up to sec 2. guess that's when you guys will understand how we feel now.
and discriminating against other races is definitely rude of you guys.
i've heard of sec 1's scolding sec 2's. yeah, racist you'll call that. that's another thing we can't stand alrights.
especially those from 1e1, being in the 1st class doesn't give you guys the right to scold / disrespect / discriminate people. learn how to change according to the situations.

those reading this post, maybe you won't get my meaning of this, but wells, those who did it will know what I'm talking about. (:

to still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
yeahs, so i choose to be that stupid person?
life hasn't been great so far.
sucky, rough & lots of unwanted troubles caused by 'innocent' people.
exam's not really very well-done.
quarrels with friends, but lucky found some people to vent my anger on.
fucking brother making me pissed off each time he comes near me.
that guy kept scolding me for no particular reason. ouh wait, it's, that guy come scolding me for something i've never done! & it wasn't me who did it, it was some 'innocent' people who did it!
i'm fucking pissed up with my fucking life mans. i don't know what i'm doing now.
i don't know what's gonna happen,
i don't know how long more i can take it.
exam's ending in about 2 weeks times, can i handle it?
-
jackie told me not to think about antything until exam's over.
he asked me to promise, i think i didn't really exactly promise him, or did i?
jackie couldn't help me much either,
it's me, it's myself.
i've to really set the determination.
i've really got to let go.
i've tried, i've said that many times,
each times ended up, unsuccessfully.
-
because of that specific person,
my life's all ruin, everyday's all quarrels with aiai.
because of you boy, because of you.
sometimes, i thought i thought i've let go.
but each time, you turn around and talk to me.
you gave me hopes, you helped me up.
then you push me down again and dash my hopes.
i'm tired of all this baby, i'm sick & tired.
please, tell me something you really mean it.
tell me....

sometimes, thing just didn't turn out to be how you expected it to be. just have to accept the fact, so life goes on as usual.
today was chinese exam, compo first, fuck, i screwd it! i keh-pa-lan go re-write. ): then ending was so children-like cans! bound to die! chinese 2nd paper. was okays, did have the time to finish, hahas. :D so, went jmine's house after exam, put her bag, and school once more. went 3rd lvl staff room find jojo & mel.y, tuition with miss lin, playing with jojo phone instead, tivona called and ask me go take photo, meaning, go there to take photo, aiyah! means i'm, inside the photo. i mistaken that meaning for 'help them take photo', so went down and they ask me change. alamak. nvm, changed, took pics, zZz, hope i don't look hideous enough. hahas. 4 ended, plaza with jessie to find jojo, jmine, mel.y & benny. ): somethings happened before that, sad enough to make me drop few that precious tear. lmao. so maybe letting go seems like the best way, but it's just saying mahs, i also know how to say. stress luhs. english paper tmr. luck!
memories's something so hurting that tears can fall for it. so sweet you'll smile at the thought of it. so nice you'll want it to be reality.
# Jessie_ '' says:
dun be sad tt it ended. b happy bcuz it started. [thanks ganlaopo(: ]

awww, hahas, thanks aiai.
hmms, yesterday went canteen to have lunch after school, while waiting for jmine & jojo.
saw johnson and group. aha. after jmine & jojo came, went compass, sit awhile at food court, then went off to meet tmk, long time no see. he changed alot huhs. (: pssss, si ah beng, so yeah, slacked awhile at void deck, and something happen, andy kinda know something he wasn't supposed to. ): hope mk doesn't know. hais, so definitely went emo, mk then gave me smth, yeahs, after awhile, went home. daddy wasn't home yet. phew. so yeahs, that's all. (:

tell me something i wanna hear. ): not those hurting words definitely.
hug me tight&tell me you loved me still.

HELLO ! (:
JOSEPHINE HERE :D
hahaha , here to help aiai change something .
byebye ;D

will update some other days. (:
sorry johnson, study hard orhs! ((:

i'm being random once more.