sometimes, girls just break down w/o a reason.
and sometimes, the reason had to be you.
had to be you, being too goofy.
had to be you, being too good-looking for me.

but all the time, girls hate waiting.
waiting for everything. waiting .. it just sucks.

do you know how i felt aft i left you on monday?
i was happy, i was sad, i was worried.
happy because i finally see you.
sad cause i have to leave you.
worried cause ... the reason's quite obvious.

do you know how much i wanted to tell you all this things that's in my mind?
all the things that made me lose sleep?
all the things that made me look so deep in thinking?
how much i wanna let you know ... it was sooo much i could even take it.
but i couldn't bear to tell you .. you're so weak in emotions.
i couldn't bear telling you all these.

i didn't reply you when you said give you more time.
it's a promise.
but baby, do you know, promise to me, is a very big word.
promise .. is smth you have to fulfill.
& i'm really afraid this promise, will end up w nothing. rather, means nothing to you.

i didn't reply.
not because i don't know what to reply.
it's because ... i'm crying.
but do i have to let you know? if i have to, then i'm sorry. i chose not to.
what can you do even if you come to know about it?
you can do nothing baby.

why do i feel like everything's changing.
you used to text me when you're awake and when you're off to work.
but these few days, i don't get morning messages.
i thought you're still asleep.
these few days, i don't get messages from you till i text you that i'm going out for lunch.
then i know you're already awake, and at work.

baby, i don't even know where you are at times.
it just feels so insecure.
sometimes i just wanna hug you so tight.
but ...

ily, and ylm too.
trust me, i do love you.
but whenever someone asks if you're my boyf, what can i say my dear?
i say yes? they'll probably ask when.
so i end up saying no, and they'll ask why and give me a face like wth and baby, what am i supposed to say?
did this kinda thing happen to you before?
cause i wonder how you pull it off.

idk if you're gonna read this and if you read this, idk how you're gonna feel / react.
but i just want you to know, every word you said, means alot to me.
if you want me to wait, yes i will.
and wait it shall be.