hey people.

i'm feeling miserable now.
maybe, tired, terribly tired.
so i slept at 3plus last night, can't blame me.
i've been having many sleepless nights already.
don't scold me, that's me, melissa, can't sleep when i'm troubled.

school today.
wasn't that great, in fact, sucks.
i haven't been listening in classes.
especially pure lit and chinese.

i have reasons.
i started losing concentration in pure lit cause i somehow began to hate kenneth lee.
well, not that serious, but dislike.
idk, i don't feel like doing work whenever he's teaching.

and chinese,
cause i didn't have my textbook.
the other time ( way during last yr's december :X ) i went to buy the books and they didn't have it in stock.
so i didn't really bother to get it,
not when my teacher didn't even ask me to get one.
so, hola.
PS : i dont know what the bloody shit is hola though

so i forgot to mention we watched horror movie yesterday during english lesson.
and i was freaked out, thanks jackie for his hand(:
poor him, his hand was numb at the end of the movie, haha.

and today,
we got back our social studies test,
expectedly, i failed. many failed.
i didn't study for it, in fact, maybe some last minute studying ..
sadly, it doesn't help.

i hadn't eaten since recess,
maybe fruits like guava, cause i didn't really have the appetite though i'm damn freakingly hungry.
and one damn thing, i'm not on diet.
maybe i need one but i don't feel like it.
ohwell, do i sound like i'm contradicting myself?

ohman.

i need to talk.
i need someone.
i need you.

it's been 2 days since the matter.
i thought i've like .. 'settled' it.
but i can't breach the topic each time i see her.
i get speechless, i didn't know how to start off.

i still feel guilty, tell me about it.
i don't even know why i'm feeling guilty.
people are like telling me to STOP THINKING SOOO MUCHHH.
i tried, seriously, honestly.
it's hard, i'm someone who tends to think alot huhs.

but i'll still try..
MELISSA!! DON'T THINK SO MUCH LAHH!

and i wanna apologise to my dear j.y.h.e.
idk why am i apologising, but i feel sorry that she got kinda p off w the teacher.
ohman, what's wrong w me ..

and sadly.
i'm very disappointed with my class, 3e3.
maybe i won't say why, but i think one of them knows why.
i was telling her about it today morning.
can somebody just tell me what are we to 3e3?
or perhaps, what 3e3 is gna mean to us?..

i wanna use the com at night.
cause he's not online now.
roar.
idk what to do la.

everything's changing.
sadly, everything.
but not my love for you.

你 看 着 我 说 千 万 不 要 爱 上 你
因 为 你 只 会 让 我 伤 心 别 傻 了
快 点 喊 停
你 那 么 冷 静 忽 远 又 忽 近
我 知 道 我 对 你 来 说 也 许 太 年轻
我 想 我 猜 我 问 我 终 于 了 解
原 来 为 爱 流 的 眼 泪 也 是 种 甜蜜 滋 味

只 想 爱 你 当 我 和 你 走 在 一 起就 已 经 决 定
不 看 不 听 不 问 也 不 会 放 弃
是 你 让 我 了 解 自 己 可 以 为 爱那 么 坚 定

只 想 爱 你 好 想 每 天 睁 开 眼睛 就 能 看 到 你
我 知 道 我 偶 尔 有 一 点 任 性
不 管 你 做 任 何 决 定 究 竟 爱 我还 是 逃 避
Sorry 我 还 是 不 会 放 弃 爱 你

{01.03pm}
i know i've tried.
bye, i'm off to bed.
eyes are straining.

see you tmr boy(: