cliques, yes, hanging outs.
but does it reallly have to be an inseperatable kind of thing? if that's the case, i guess i'm already eliminated cause i don't quite often join you guys in outings.

it's upsetting when you said that your only cliques left ain't in your class. which made it quite obvious a hint, or a saying.
maybe we could say we tried but it came to nought. maybe because, of your absence.

i didn't understand, maybe we hardly interact.
maybe i didn't know you well enough i thought i do.
i think i'm quite speechless, you said you wouldn't care.

you used the word ' friend ' on us, i wouldn't bear to treat you as one.
i thought it was strong enough but seemingly, it couldn't withstand.
maybe things change as people change. not meaning you've changed.
but maybe you're less talkative now, maybe you needed more initiation.
or maybe we needed to be more initiative.

you need us, but we unknowingly left you alone.
i didn't know you felt like that, maybe once again, of your absence.
absence, drifts us apart, tear us up.

maybe your mind was set up long ago, i didn't notice. maybe if we noticed, you wouldn't made a decision so big. i guess you don't wanna trust us anymore, or maybe, we could try getting back the trusts. you held on but we weren't there for you.

i said i couldn't understand, cause you're treating me the same throughout whereas the other 2 on and off. i wouldn't dare to argue back, or i couldn't bear to, for knowing that you wouldn't change once you set ur decision on smth.

i guess no matter how, we couldn't get back to how we were once, or can we? if we tried?
i hope, you would, try giving us a chance to retrieve what's lost and what's needed to be put back.
i guess all is too late for this, maybe you wouldn't even bother to read this.
or maybe you're reading it now, with a 'don't care' kinda temper.
an apology at this time or any other time couldn't save it huh?
take care babe. every day, i'm still trying.