things happen for a reason.
and things don't happen if you don't think about it.
many things went through my mind when i got that msg.
it seems like im partly involved in what you did.
i felt as though i was the one who encouraged you though i never gave you any before.

i don't have a clue why did you even start it.
it seems that its true.
people say once you start it, you cant stop.
and it goes on and on, and things just got worse and worse.

please tell me what you're thinking, what's on your mind.
please baby. i wanna know, jk told me to leave you alone.
otherwise you'll get irritated. i did that.
i hope you're fine. i really don't want you to carry on w your wrongs.
please stop everything.

i loved you then & i still love you as much. maybe more.
i really don't want you to regret whatever you've done.
buck up baby

{edited}
i felt useless, simply useless.
you see, i heard your voice.
i want to be there for me, but i couldn't.
i really had nothing to say to comfort you.
i want to try to help you, but i couldn't.
........
it's really not a nice feeling D: